I was looking through my doodle account and..

…..

awkward moment when my joke becomes a reality.

AND THEN IT WAS PINK/MAGENTA/VIOLET/DIFFERENT.

It’s okay. I’m an artist. 

The half brown - half blonde hair is going today D:

I feel like re-reading Way of Shadows… but I loaned the book to my sis-in-law. 

I get to class and turns out that the first 2 weeks we will be doing life drawing. 

So we go into the studio and we’re to grab five obnoxiously large pieces of paper and put it on the eisel. We’ve got industrial fans blowing and I so happened to have picked the worst placed eisel since only my paper is the one threatening to fly away or smack me in the fact. I grab a bullpin and clip it to the board and of course I only manage to clip one of the pages onto the board, the other four kind of awkwardly slip down while I try to bring it back up. 

Okay, these papers are really thin and large its just really hard to get them to all sit UPRIGHT. Meanwhile, the teacher is just giving instruction on what’s meant to be done while I’m in the background making all this awkward paper rustling noise and getting various armfuls of paper. 

I then reach up to grab the bullpin and of course it so happened to slip from the board and go flying 3 meters in the air and landing too far away from me to reach. 

Everyone has basically turned around and just stared at me as I try and straighten up the paper against the board. 

Eventually noticing everyone looking at me before casually leaning my elbow against the eisel and paper like I’ve got my shit under control.

Totally under control. 

I think it’s pretty obvious that coming to the new university as the ‘cool guy with the mysterious past’ is no longer in the cards. 

So first day at the new university starts today. I’m still trying to figure out if I wanna go in as that person with the ‘mysterious past’ who sits by themselves and doesn’t give a fuck but works hard. 

Or that person who will grab anyone who makes intimate eye contact and force a friendship upon them. 

Boy, I’m so unhappy/angry with everything and it gets worse with each passing second. 

Does anyone remember the very first novel they read? 

This was mine. 

I think I want to go hunt for this tomorrow when I go shopping so I can reread it because I remember being in love with this when I was 7 or something…